Siblings

The bonds of family have strength

Beyond the reaches of any means to break them.

The embodiment of unconditional love,

battling all conflicts

persisting with honesty

and open affection,

a Forever Alter-ego

Lives

in the form of a Sibling.

May everyone have brothers & sisters!

Excitement

One of my closest friends from high school called, unexpectedly, to chat.  It was the happiest few minutes of my day!  We discussed the progress she made in her wedding plans, and talked about this and that and all that for just a few minutes.  It felt like we were back in high school again...in a good way :)  I wish pleasant surprises upon everyone!

Undecided

Confused and indecisive about which house to pick...

Why does everything have to be so difficult?

Is it because I don't have clear priorities?

Am I too flexible?

Too open to new ideas?

Vision beyond imagination...

Somethings cannot be chalked up to a simple explanation.

It may be a testing time.

Or a distraction.

Find a piece of heaven: Blog!

I really like having a blog, even though no one else visits it.
Actually, i think i like it especially because no one visits it.
No comments, no criticisms (positive or negative).
Just the outflow of pure, random stuff on my mind.
Whenever i feel like writing.
Expressing my thoughts.
When no one else is around to listen,
friends are busy,
family is traveling,
and others are working.
Whenever i remember i've got a blog.
Monologue.
Yet brave enough to be on the internet,
With the satisfaction of letting it out,
And the excitement of going public,
Because of the miniscule possibility of being read.

Sometimes

...there are thoughts that creep into my mind, 

minor and almost irrelevant.

Things of the past.

The what ifs...?

I ignore them, for a while...then after that, 

the thoughts come back.

Still irrelevant, but nagging.

Whatever happened to the people of the past?

Are they still the same? 

Are they in a different city/state/country/married/kids/famous?

Are they happy?

This last thought makes me wonder if I'm truly happy.

I am blessed with a good life, great family and an amazing husband.

But then, I know when the nagging thoughts get louder in my head.

After contemplating for years...

I now realize there is a definite pattern! 

A crazy pattern exists to when my nostalgia for the past is overpowering.

Exactly during the times of strained focus - 

which is the pinnacle of stress - 

on the Kaplan publications,

when I'm engrossed in reviewing the intricacies of the components

of platelets' alpha granules and dense bodies,

or some other such detailed, intellectually challenging task,

my mind fights back with wanting to wander off,

yes, to a less difficult matter...

Yet,

the past is better as just that.

Moving in the same direction as time is in my best interest.

Or, 

maybe, 

this is what I say when it's harder to find people of the past online.

;)